See him when I close my eyes

 I don't even know what day I wore this. The week is a blur. 

The inspiration though came from Sept 2013 catalog of J Crew:

 I decided to create this mixing deep red with bordeaux but decided to go mustard on the top. Not quite sure if it worked. Honestly, I am kind of going through the motions when getting dressed these days so it didn't matter.

Cap, Pants, Necklace - J Crew

Top, Jacket - Forever 21

Booties - Steve Madden

EARLIER THIS WEEK:
Days are a blur this week…
I was doing OK but then as the days go the grief sets in more. There are days I pretty much shed tears throughout the whole day. Everything reminds me of my dad. Everything is a trigger. I hide behind my large sunglasses but the kids are no dummy. Then there are the nights where I lay with wide open eyes staring at the ceiling.  Barely falling sleep when the sun is coming up making me feel ridiculously exhausted when I have to wake up early.
So, I am pretty much getting dressed every other day or every 2 days. Plus we are working like crazy for the past week going through old photos pulling favorites for a big slide show for my dad's 'celebration of life' service this Sunday. Of course looking at photos are the all time trigger. But it is smiles and tears and this vast feeling of gratefulness for all those things we did together.

I do our regular routine with the kids every other day. My wonderful mom and step dad fill in in between. My mom having lost a dad herself gets me 100% which is such a comfort….

On a lighter note, my daughter took the preschool class puppet: 'Winnie' home this week….

The Light between Oceans

Yesterday's Inspiration was from Nov 2013 issue of People Style Watch:

I liked the idea of the varsity jacket dressed up with heels…

In the morning though I had no time so I wore the base of this outfit which was jeans, tee and the jacket  with the Doc Marten style boots. At night for the book club meeting I added make-up necklace and the heels. It was quite a transformation which once agin proves the power of accessories...

 These are by far the most expansive pair of shoes in my collection. I got them on clearance years ago from New York's Century 21 store discounted down many times from their original price of $1500!!!

Jacket, Jeans, Necklace - Forever 21

Tee - Old Navy

Heels - Chanel

MONDAY:
It was the last day of pre-school and our holiday party… I picked up my sister in law and nephew to join us. He was more interested in the toys in the class but they all enjoyed doing Christmas crafts, decorating the gingerbread houses the mommies had cut and assembled last week and a visit from Santa with book gifts topped it all. We ended the party with a yummy potluck….

After class my brother picked them up and took my daughter to my mom's. I rushed home to stop for 2 minutes then to my son's school to volunteer in his class. Was put in charge of coin bingo which the kids had quite a hard time adding up the coins but it was fun teaching. Then my son and I came back home and I desperately tried to finish my calendar projects on snapfish to order before the 55% off coupon expires. Then it was to swim class where my brother came to watch and back to home. My hubby was happy he only had one kids so they did homework and went ot dinner and then watched football together while I cooked my potluck dish and went to my friend's house for our book club meeting to discuss our last book 'The light between oceans'…

My friend who loves to bake made these professional looking gorgeous sugar cookies:

It was a great meeting as always first catching up on each other's lives and eating then discussing the book. Except the discussion questions we looked up happened to be the literature lovers questions and we didn't realize until the end but all noticed how they were worded like we were in a college lit course and were laughing about it.

Next book: 

Where'd You Go, Bernadette

Part of Your World

 Today's combo is inspired by a very recent lookbook from J Crew's website:

 The site drives me crazy though cause you can't save the photo so I have to print the page and take a photo of that….

I love this soft cotton varsity jacket and the bordeaux/black color block is very cool...

Jacket - Forever 21

Blouse - Nordstrom's 

Pants - Kika Paprika

Heels - Shoedazzle

TODAY:
Went to see the 'Little Mermaid' play at the Jr. Theater with our preschool class. As usual this company did an amazing job. The kids were sooo talented and the play, the costumes the props were gorgeous. We enjoyed it just as much as the kids. My daughter has been singing like Ariel all day since we left.

All different versions of Ariel Dresses