Right words to say

A pintrest inspiration on Saturday:

I loved this combination  of blue and black layers. I went with a navy tank and navy blazer but kept the pants and boots black letting the oxford blue shirt pop….

Blazer, Pants - Forever 21

Shirt - H&M

Tank Top - Kika Paprika

Booties - Juicy Couture

Necklace - Vintage

SATURDAY:
It was a tough day. I have recently lost a dear friend. He was my Boss for over 8+ years at a company where we were so much more than just colleagues. Trying to explain the dynamic is almost impossible. We did everything together as a group and traveled so often which allowed all of us to become closer. We worked super hard and partied hard too.
My husband at the time became good friends with him too and we would usually turn work trips into vacations by adding weekends and having our better halves fly out to join. My other friend and I were his #2's and ran the whole office.

In order to say good-bye to our dear friend we held a get together at a bar we used to go so often.
It was amazing to have this big re-union. So many people flew in out of town.

I was very anxious as this group of people who I spent sooo much time together and were so close represented my pre-kid career woman life. They only knew the crazy ambitious young girl who was probably a too strict boss but partied hard when we went out and did shots and could drink anybody under the table.
Some didn't even know I now had kids and couldn't believe. They couldn't picture me as a mom, driving a mini van and staying home.

On the same token, my friends now couldn't understand how much loosing this friend means to me and how close I was to him and all the other people I worked with. They don't know the me that was then and can't fathom how I was.

Only my closest and oldest girlfriends knew both sides of me and of course were there to support and hold my hand as I re-hashed a lot of closed doors as part of this re-union.

Here is my friend that I lost (can you see how young I was?):

 Always life of the party, the most generous big personality guy I know. He has thought me everything about the industry we worked in and managing but also how to play craps, how to order drinks and how to party in general….

HERE IS SATURDAY's Re-Union in his Memory:

The couple on my side flew in from PA and stayed with us one night…

My friend on the other side lives in San Diego 

Him and I were the #2's in the office than became the head guys when our boss moved to London to run a division there.

With our old assistant in the middle and my friend's wife….

 HERE IS TO YOU DEAR FRIEND…

We know this is how you would have liked to say good-bye….

When the laughter's dies, the drinks are gone and the bars are closed. You've slept it off the haze of the
hangover slowly disseminates .... under running water there's a quiet, still moment and that's when
the grief  rears  it's ugly head and the pain not physical but emotional surrounds you and
for a moment you let it happen...